old times

I went to a local show for the first time in maybe 2 years. I saw so many people that I haven't seen in ages. Sherazada and Throwing Color. I've heard alot of Sherazada, but never saw them before. Pretty standard NJ rock scene. Nothing has changed except the faces. Throwing Color is comprised of a bunch of my old friends, so, i'll give them a plug on here. haha. www.myspace.com/throwingcolor.

Paper Wars

http://www.paper-wars.com/


Origami In the Pursuit of Perfection from MABONA ORIGAMI on Vimeo.

Blood Banks

Christmas Eve. It's a good time to be a child. Remember what it felt like? Man it was THE BEST. Growing up sucks, but essential of course.

I am trying to hit NYC before New Years, if anyone wants to come.

Speaking of New Year's Eve, What is everyone doing? I have a couple possibilities.



I can't wait for 2009

Inhale.

Home in New Jersey is good. Didn't get to tie up my loose ends at school, let's see how they pan out over break huh.

Jeez I like m83 alot.

standing at the back door.

I want to go home. I still have 3 finals, but I also feel like I have unfinished business with some people here. That may be okay with them, but not with me.

blue ridge mountains

tonight was great.

I wouldn't live like that if you paid me

Tree fell on one of our houses. what the fuck. haha. 4 cars busted. 2 holes in the roof.

Mike and Sean got it the worst

Sean

Mike

Well.
Life has been alright. Last Friday was Ross Fredella's art show. Had the most fun I've had in awhile at the after party. It was good seeing Jamie Martini and everyone else that I haven't seen in awhile.

I have been so indifferent about things regarding school. It really sucks, because I need to get motivated in order to make up work and do finals.

surrounded.

I can't wait to go home, where people I surround myself with are rational.

where people don't get upset over dumb things.

and dumb things don't upset me.

and where loyalty means something.

psycho killer

I am on the events staff at the radio station at Hartford. I wanna get real serious with this and bring shows back to school. I think it could potentially be a really good thing.

oh yeah.

bad scene-everyone's fault

I found the futility of my problems in the lyrics to a jawbreaker song.

Capricorn (Dec 22- Jan 19)

You have reached your limit dealing with people who are not willing to acknowledge their feelings. But don't jump to any conclusions, for it's possible that you misinterpreted someone's attempt to reach out to you. Sometimes, you can be so goal-oriented that you miss a more subtle communication. Take the time to sink into your emotions before accusing others of avoiding theirs.

pretty accurate.

King Eternal

It was good seeing Meghan. I miss her a lot, sometimes I feel like she was what kept everything balanced for me up here.

I got good advice the other day. It is advice I have heard before. but I took it to heart this time. Here's to hoping that it makes a change.

WHAT I MISSED THIS WEEKEND:
joke falling down.
10 people falling down on each other and on a kitchen table.
kitchen table slides.
ecstasy on a big bed.
the forest in my living room.
walking around the village depressed.
manakin destruction.

What I needed:
To get away from school, hang with new people, being happy whilst drunk. Being a random person instead of being judged by people who have known me long enough to have made assessments about my character.

I got what I needed.
bummer I missed all that good stuff though. even though some of the stuff I missed was just sarcasm.

Possibilities.

As I was walking to my car tonight, I overheard a girl and some guy yelling at each other from across the quad today. She was saying, "It'll never happen, ever." and he was responding, "oh yeah? what about that time freshman year? it already happened in the past."

I wonder if It really happened. I wonder if she remembers. I wonder what it was. I wonder how it was. I wonder if he's lying. I wonder. So many possibilites.



On another note.
Isolation Attempt #2: Targets.
Not going to isolate myself from everyone, just a select few.

Sun it rises.

Who knows what's going on these days. I'm stuck in a routine for one of the first times in my life. Maybe I am growing up. I'm usually just hang around my house trying to figure out what I am to do with the rest of my life. I got a zero on an electronics test the other day, due to lack of communication, and lack of work ethic. I have to work harder in school, I have to graduate in 2 and a half years, we've spent enough money.

I've been trying to do my own thing lately, which is sometimes forced on me by friends who are too busy doing their own work. Ahhh, why do I have so much freetime, while others have too much work.

I started playing guitar again, and I am going to put a bigger effort into teaching myself drums. While also trying to dig myself out of the academic hole that I have fallen into these past months. It's going to be a hectic month.

All I really want to do is go home, to a warm, clean house, with my family, and that one other little opportunity. It's going to be nice to get a break, but after my dad sees my grades, will it truly be a break, or a search for job due to my forced dropping out of college. I guess time will tell.

Final Note: All of my roommates are growing facial hair and it makes me wonder what it would be like. Would I picture myself with that extension of my face, or would I keep picturing myself as I am now? Strange. Who do you think?

jigsaw falling into place.

for the first time in awhile, I have the tools and motivation I need to be truly happy.

now to make it happen.

crooked head

first blog entry.

see my activity on this thing? I made it like 3 weeks ago.

pretty rad.

my Indian math teacher gave me a take-home midterm to do on Monday. It's due tomorrow. I have done only one problem on it. It might be because I haven't learned a thing in that class. Foreign teachers suck and the worst thing is I'm in a school that has a majority of them. Oh and we are having an in-class midterm exam during class tomorrow too. Talk about to much math.

On a better note, home this weekend.